My choice, My right, Get over it

Ok, allow me to have a moment real quick. I remember a conversation my husband and I had a little over three years ago. I was laying in the bathtub for almost an hour when Josh came in to check on me. I was kind of in a daze. He walked in and asked if I was ok and without thinking I looked up at him and said, "I want to have a baby" It wasn't even what I was thinking about but it just came out. Shocked me almost as much as him. So we talked a lot about it and decided that we wouldn't try so much as we wouldn't not try. I think this was around September we had this conversation. The Sunday after Thanksgiving in 2007 I found out I was pregnant with Liam. I remember feeling overwhelmed and so happy. I thought it would take much longer given that we had unprotected sex TWO TIMES. Good gracious. So we went through the journey of being pregnant. I've told the story enough times I don't have to again. Needless to say by the end of it I made up my mind, as well as Josh did, that we weren't going to have anymore kids. I talked to my Dr about it. She didn't want to tie my tubes in case I wasn't sure if I wanted to have more or not. I told her I was sure but they wouldn't take my word for it. I didn't think anything of it at the time. Now it kind of honks me off.

I have said many many many times that I have no desire to have another kids. I use to give reasons why: money, time, just don't have the desire. But here is what I realized. For all the people that ask me and wonder why Josh and I don't want to have more kids, here is what is going to become my stock answer: "NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS" Yes sorry, a little harsh but here is what my thing is, no matter what you think or what you feel ... it doesn't matter. It's MY CHOICE to have no more children. How does it affect your life if I don't have more kids?

Life is about choices. I have made mine. I did chose to have Liam and I chose to have no more. That doesn't make me a bad person or selfish. That means that I am happy and content with my son and don't desire anymore. So from now on whenever anyone feels the need to judge me, question me or simply ask me the question be ready for my answer ... "NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS!!!"