Where motivation spawns

I am quite convinced that I will be one of those people that will falter on keeping motivation when it comes to my diet. But I'm very happy that I've hit a point where I am highly motivated. I think the trick I have found is actually trick my mind. I have always suffered from anxiety and panic attacks and whereas I have learned to control them over the years, I have realized that my mind has a huge affect on how I react to things.

I've learned that if I keep telling myself over and over that soda is horrible, fried foods, things with high sodium, things high in sugar. That if I eat these things I will get sick then I tend to avoid them. I have started reading up a lot on ingredients ... or just reading labels in general. Something I have never done. Something that has really started to help me is reading the serving size on things. I would just eat. Not pay attention to just how much I was suppose to be eating. I ordered some girl scout cookies off a client and when I read the label I realized the serving size was 2 .... two cookies. Really? So that's all I ate. Another thing that works is eating slower and drinking water throughout the meal really helps. Usually I eat so fast my body can't catch up to tell me it's full.

I'm so lucky that I have a funnel of different things and people who feed into my motivation. Sometimes without people knowing they are helping, they do. In my journey to positivity I have discovered something that is pivotal to aiding people is being complimentary. I think people (myself included) are too judgemental. We are so quick to pick out people flaws that we don't pay attention to their attributes. I know I'm often taken as a kiss ass, but really I just point out to people what's right in front of their faces. I have the pleasure of being in the company of some amazing people. And to have even a little of that reciprocated makes a huge difference. When a client writes or calls me and says they love their hair they have no idea what that means to me. I'm passionate about what I do and I'm glad others appreciate it. I have friends who vocalize their feelings, family members, my husband all these people who don't let me get down. And I'm forever thankful.

It's a hard balance I'm trying to get in this journey. To try to make my time divide between so many people and still have time for myself is hard. I was lucky enough today to have the entire day off. Josh worked, Liam was at day care. Don't get me wrong, I love to spend time with my boys but I do need my alone time. The only thing I really did today was have my training session with Chad. I took a shower, watched movies, danced around to music in my living room, sat in silence for a while, took a drive. It was wonderful and I feel rejuvinated. So tomorrow I believe after I take Liam to day care, I'm going to go on a walk around Collet Park since I will be right there. Weather permitting. If not I will go back to the gym.

Things are going great right now and I really hoping this motivation keeps pouring in. I would love to be down to a 12 by this summer and hopefully a 10 by this fall. Chad thinks it's totally attainable if I can control my calories and carb intake. Portion control portion control portion control. I can do this!!!!!!