Back to reality

Wow have I really let myself go! It started last weekend, we had dinner with friends and I fell off my diet and then that started the ball rolling until today I made it come to a screeching halt. This is always what happens. I start to lose weight and see some results so I "reward" myself with a bad meal ... that leads to the next, that leads to the next, that leads to the next. Well it stops now!!! I'm definitely getting back on track now!! I want to be able to confidently walk around in a bathing suit this summer!!

I had a session with the amazingly talented Samantha from the Roxy Studio this week. It was much needed. I highly recommend this to women not only because Samantha is my friend and I fully support her amazing business, but she has a way of making people feel beautiful. She is so bubbly and happy. She is wonderfully talented at angles and lighting. She will tell you to hold your head this way, move your arm here, hold your leg up and look a certain way. You feel like you're in a pretzel but OMG does it turn out AMAZING!! She knows ... she just knows. I'm a big girl ... yes I'm working on it ... but a size 14 as of now ... and after I do pictures with her I feel trim and sexy and confident. How in the hell does she do that!! I don't care how much it is, or how uncomfortable you think you may feel, I think it would benefit every woman out there to do this.

I recently did some soul searching and removed some people from facebook ... I know facebook is not the be all end all, but it does connect a lot of people and I'm thankful for that. But I have realized I had some toxic people in my life, and I never removed them because I thought they would be hurt that I removed them. But then I realized that the reasons why I wanted to remove them was because these people don't add any value to my life, so why would I give it a thought to if THEY were upset if I removed them? I don't hate these people, I just don't feel the need to share my stories and photos with them. I no longer feel the need to explain myself or my reasoning for doing things. I'm perfectly content with my choices. I'm not married to my friends. I don't owe any one a reason for why I do the things I do. Even though I'm pretty straight forward and say what I mean. Some people have made me try to feel guilty for choices I've made or things I've said. Nope ... no more. If you have an issue with me or my choices ... press on. I'm not trying to be bitchy, but I don't desire anyones approval. My family is happy and those are the only people whose approval I desire.

I'm getting to be in a great place right now and I'm relishing in it. There will be days where I'm down and out and that's ok, I will go with it. But the days of my so called "friends" questioning me are D O N E.