Precious Moment

I just had one of the most precious moments with Liam I think I have ever had. I picked him up from day care tonight and he was kind of warm and lethargic. I got him home and took his temperature and it was 101.6. Bummmmmer. So I gave him tylenol and his allergy medicine. Let him run around and play a little before we settled in. Now we have been fighting bed time something fierce for the past two or three weeks. So it was odd that he was not arguing at all when I said it was time to go to bed.

Our new night time regiment has become for me to lay in his bed and read him three books (two of which are always Grovers Guide to Good Manners and Goodnight Moon) then we talk about his day and what we are going to do tomorrow then I leave his room where he usually cries and fusses for a while before going to sleep. So tonight I went in and read his books, talked and decided since he didn't feel well I would lay in there with him for a few minutes.

He laid on his side and me on mine and I was talking to him. I noticed his eyes were very heavy. He reached over and patted my face and said "love you so much Momma" and of course I got choked up. He then said "rub my back please" so i rubbed his back for a minute and he groggily said "sing to me momma" which i haven't done since he was an infant so i thought that was an odd request. When he was a baby I always sang "My Bonnie lies over the ocean" (which is something I remember my parents singing to me) and "My favorite things" I sang these to him while he put his arm around me and I rubbed his back and for the first time since he was less than a year old he fell asleep in my arms. Now to most people maybe that sounds like nothing, but I laid there and looked at him as he was so quiet and thought to myself, would my life ever feel this full if I had never had this precious child? No matter the fits and tantrums, the money or stress, it's the moments like that when he is totally vulnerable and completely precious that I know it's all worth it.